jumbled

today was just another one of my quiet days. nobody walked me to class, pretending like i'm worth they're time, in fact, none of my "friends" had much to say to me today. i worked out in gym, on the exercise bike, running, lifting weights, crunches, fucking around with the medicine ball, anything to get me out of my slump. nothing worked. as soon as i got home, i looked for meds i could get high from...none at all. i looked for booze. none. i did find my knife though...